I'm losing myself again
Time is flowing past me
My heart floats outside my chest
All sense of direction arrested
I am fading into something
Like moons eclipsing themselves
It's this weird sinking feeling
The abyss of my stomach
I see hearts break in brown eyes
The sighs of lovers forlorn
I want to wipe the tears and become
What you need
But, what about me?
I am selfish and self indulgent
The desire to cater is absent
I'm tired of serving without reward
My love is a sword through my breast
I am ashamed of what I become
When I am hopeless
Sometimes I can't help myself
I commit zipless acts with abandon
Whispering of regrets
I wish upon stars
For a simple life and love
Complexities compel me
To artfully display my pain
Cum stains on sheets
Tear stains on cheeks
Blood stains that reek
Havoc and heartache
Hello, you old familiar
Faceless and merciless
Silent and heavy
Emptiness
